hidding something

have you ever hide something from your family because you know or like somehow thinks it will get you into big trouble???? well i have and lets just say that i do it A LOT!!! yup yup... like i mean i'm not like proud of it, but like they make it so hard to communicate with them that you end up don't communicating with them at all.... well idk why but yeah and well there's a lot of things i hide from them but there are just some things that are hard to "cover up" i mean it's know that bad.... well i guess in my family it is but yeah..... so like my brother found out and idk if he's going to tell my mom, talk to her about it, talk to me or whatever... oh man if only god would pity my soul and just make everyone forget that it ever happened.... but yeah... i mean i like talking to my brother but whenever we have like a serious talk i just somehow just cant help but feel dumb about it or just shut up and have nothing else to say to him...... and it just plain old pisses me off!!!!!!!!!!! well... who ever is out there pray for me please... please help me and let my brother from not saying anything about it to anyone, anything, any soul, any object and just keeps it to himself in a safely manner.....

big words....

you know, i never really like the fact of big words like " enigma" and "pompous" i mean if you just want to called someone a mystery or conceited than why don't you just say so! you don't have to go and make up so big word just to sound smart or if you just don't want to have anyone hear what you are saying instead of just making up some other language where no one can understand... i mean what happened to all the other simple words??? i mean i think that it is the whole entire reason why we were taught those word in the first place.... so why do you have to go and invent more words for us to memorizes when we perfectly have all those other simple words to describe   what we're talking about... i mean if people didn't come up with all those other words for us to remember, we would probably be having a lot easier time to remember other things, like the dates of U.S. events and people's birthdays and phone numbers other than being limited to what we are allow to remember... you know all this talk of big words really makes me think of someone who LOVES to use big words.... i mean he LOVES to use big words so much he even uses it in his daily life... and you know sometimes... okay most of the times i'm with him...it really makes me feel like a person who watches t.v. everyday... but oh well i do like using big words sometimes.... or only when really smart people makes me feel stupid

raining saturday

damn today was such a rainy saturday
A friend of mine visited from overseas in my store, how adorable,, that little fob kid. I just want to smash his head with a tennis racket and see how it looks. Maybe hell taste good becuz he looked like a dying dog in my store having not much money. How do they cook dog again? ahhh,, we have materials in the store anyways.....he started to walk around in my store looking like some sore loser who has nothing to do after waking up in the morning i believe he was still wearing his jammies, im not sure but he was soaking wet too.... maybe he didnt have any clothes to wear after coming out of the beach...... who knows???? did he sleep on the beach and took a shower in it too??? and why was he at my store????